June 30, 2019:  It’s been a challenging month. I flew into so many walls. Yes, it hurt. My inner superhero has been boldly pushing its way out.  Pride called my number. Apparently answering was not a multiple choice question. 

The queer story is mine. For clarity, it’s mine by extension. Twice. My first husband is gay and my son (second marriage) is bi. While I believe everyone’s sexuality is on a spectrum, in my lived reality these labels caused great trauma to those I love and me.

Until this month I didn’t realize how much of me was defined by my queer history. The best and worst of me attached herein. The other day I met with the executive director of Louisville Youth Group (an LGBTQIA+ Youth and Allies non-profit). I want to help. 

Tearfully I shared my story. Patiently he listened to every detail. With empathy his eyes held me afloat as the hurt, fear, regret, and love poured out of me. When I was finished his response took me aback. Very gently he informed me that my story, while highly personal, was common. 

Really? If I pull back I can see the broader perspective. 

The queer story is universal. It transcends all silos of class, race, religion, and gender. Its plight is simple and fundamental. It is the heart of humanity. The desire to be, the desire to belong, the desire to love, and the desire to be loved.  

If  “ we are all created equal”, why don’t we live that way? Check out this message I channeled while visiting my son at the University of Virginia a few months after white supremacists and neo-Nazis marched on campus and became a hideous example of the unrest in our world. 

Forgive yourself and others anytime you got it wrong. Today is the beginning of a better tomorrow. The Pantone 2009 Color of the Year, Mimosa captures the optimism for the future available when we let go of judgement and embrace our right to shine

The color yellow exemplifies the warmth and nurturing quality of the sun, properties we as humans are naturally drawn to for reassurance. Mimosa also speaks to enlightenment, as it is a hue that sparks imagination and innovation.
— Leatrice Eiseman, executive director of the Pantone Color Institute®

Rainbow, you’re on. Lead the way. Let the sun show us the magnificent array of colors that are embodied in the human race. As for me, this superhero is ready to come out. Gratitude to Natasha Bedingfield for putting my “pocketful of sunshine” super power to song. Hope is what I can offer you. Hope is what I can offer me

Join me in boldly creating a world of light. We have the power!